i've screwed up all the good things in m life, i was given so many opportunities, ppl trusted in me, believed in me, and i blew it all.... i screwed up, i axed everythin with my own two hands, what kills me the most is not the disappointment i feel not the hurt that kills me everyday,not the remorse that wrenches my hearrt every second but the BELIEF and faith ppl had in me my friends my family my mentors and i jusst............. BLEW it... out of sheer lazyiness.....
i have had many regrets in my life. Big ones trust me, but NEVER did i have THis intense a feeling to jusstttttt,........... turn back time and do things differently, guess that's not happening, so how t deal with this mess???? hnestly i havent got a clue.......

i jus wanna be alone on the sea shore with nothin but jus me lost in the abyss of my incoherent thoughts and my maze of a mind, maybe i'll find myself there, or maybe i'll jus lose myself completely, who knows??
maybe life is about gettin lost... in whatever., in mycase getttin lost in my failures.